When I was younger I was Beaten (spanked).?

Well I don't know why as I think about it I feel.. almost traumatized I know that kids should have some physical discipline but.. It feels so.. I don't know I don't get spanked or beaten anymore. But when I was younger the slightest things I would do.. I would get spanked for it. And I feel like its lead me to be a little more aggressive as a teenager Im 14 now but yeah. I just.. I feel terrible once I think about it I feel.. horrible and terrible and It makes me sad I don't know what to do. And I don't want to talk to my parents about it because I know they will probably say "Oh well when kids are bad they deserve it" or something like that.